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Growing Up.(by delliya zain)
JULY 2004

Once upon a time when I was younger,
I always feel that being 25(age) or more
would be the age when I have control of my life.

Unfortunately at this very moment
I am confused, depress, lost and out of control.
Yet I am learning from all this "shit".

I know there would be sunshine after the rain!!!
I am patiently waiting for it to happen.

But I have learnt.

Making decision is easy.
But making the right one is the hardest.
It takes a lot of risk.
It just depends on how we handle the risk.
Or how much risk we are willing to take.
Lots of consideration must be taken.

When you gain some.
You’ll lose some.
I lost a lot!!

I miss Aberdeen and my dearest friends.
Aberdeen is a peaceful and friendly place.
Just like in a fairy tale.
Had friends that treat me like family.
We had fun together and we cried together.

Yet, I left.
I left the ever so perfect environment
of faithful and fun friends.
To an environment so evil.

Maybe that’s why it’s red. (Manchester)
Nope, I do like Manchester.
I just haven’t found the right
people to be with I guess.

I know I can’t please everyone.
Yet I won’t hurt anyone on purpose.

It’s hard being alone in strange new place.

Some people like me.
And some don’t. (Doesn’t matter)
If they take some time to get to know me
I know they’ll enjoy being my friend.
But if they don’t get to know me at all,
Yet hate me, I pity them.
It shows that person’s personality
and I don’t think I want to be friends
with those people.

People talk.
So when they talk
What ever I do
will still be wrong.
So I’ll play dumb.

I know what have happened to me
would make me a better person
and stronger.

I am also thankful that I have met
With some people that trust me.
Care for me and gave me a job,
which caused chaos to my life.

Yet it’s a blessing in disguised.
(hope so)

I can only plan my journey.
But Allah makes it happens or not.

I hope this phase of life
will be over soon.
InsyakAllah

It is just part of growing up.

[03 Sep 2004 | Friday] THe ReaSoN

- HooBaSTaNK dedicated to my love ashreen

THe ReaSoN - HooBaSTaNK

I’m not a perfect person

There’s many things I wish I didn’t do

But I continue learning I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know I’ve found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new and the reason is you

I’m sorry that I hurt you It’s something I must live with everyday

And all the pain I put you through I wish that I could take it all away

And be the one who catches all your tears

Thats why i need you to hear I’ve found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new and the reason is You

[x4] I’m not a perfect person I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know I’ve found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new and the reason is you

I’ve found a reason to show A side of me you didn’t know

A reason for all that I do And the reason is you

I am married, but in love with power puff girls, barbie etc. i guess i am young at heart… do i have grow up and be boring??

babies? hmmm babies or my RIBA Part 3? the answer is pretty obvious.. but not an easy decision.. nope…  nothing is easy…